Dear you,
Happy May Day. Is that appropriate?
Probably not, considering our Covid world. However, this is the workers’ day. And I can only echo litanies of praise for those nurses, doctors, mental health folks, food suppliers, cops, firemen/women etc., those committed workers who keep us going.
Committed. Commitment.
Where do we all fall on the commitment curve? Time for self-reflection.
Commitment to some non-specific outcome or future. Uhm, not something I do well. Yes, I have committed myself to goals, academic, professional, or even physical. But those were easy because they seemed so tied to present reality; the pursuits produced immediate pleasure pay-backs. On the other hand, these actions give me a “commitment itch”, apparently promising zero endorphin rushes:
1. Stocking up on toilet paper.
2. Signing up for Medicare.3. Taking Vivo cat to the Vet.
4. Maintaining connections with more than four people.
5. Buying a stupid house.
Don’t be alarmed about Vivo. She is in fabulous shape and living a fluffy queen life. And don’t be alarmed for me either. I will do what I must when life puts a metaphorical gun to my head. However, that toilet paper thing is a mystery. Never, ever in my life have I purchased anything larger than a 4-roll pack. Even during Covid-19 hoarding. What does this mean? Am I imagining that in time I will outgrow the need to eliminate waste?
Maybe I just live for the moment.
Maybe I just live . . .
Maybe I just quote show tune song lyrics: “Hey, maybe I’ll dye my hair/maybe I’ll move somewhere/maybe I’ll get a car/maybe I’ll drive so far they’ll all lose track/me . . . I’ll bounce right back . . .” (Best Little Whorehouse in Texas 😊)
Or maybe I’ll simply accept the fact that, in my case, commitment might just be a ball and chain.
I know what to do. And I will do it when I am damn well ready. So, if other survival oriented, pandemic driven shoppers look askance at my little basket of goods with the tiny four-roll pack of Angel Soft, they just need to fall back:
That is just not me.
Maybe I just live for the moment. Or for however long those four rolls last.
Love,
Joyce
a 12 roll commitment could help you win friends and influence people for the many moments to come.
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